Showing posts with label cry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label cry. Show all posts

Sunday, March 22, 2009

A must watch move about Death

Went to watch the Japanese movie "Departures" today at GV.

I had heard some rather good reviews about this "death" movie. About how it was almost full house on weekdays afternoons when most movies play to empty halls. Heard about the laughter in the first part of the movie and the tears of the audience that flowed towards the end of the movie.

And I was truly intrigued! I really wanted to see people walking out of cinemas, eyes red, crying after a movie. That I have never seen!

So I dragged SO, who normally dun like foreign films, to the cinemas. Not our usual chain of movie theatres, which offered a 50% discount on the 2nd movie ticket on Sunday, simply by flashing our handphone operator logo.

We paid for 2 full price weekend tickets! And that's a rarity! That's how much we wanted to watch this movie!

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"Departures" was truly one of the best shows I have seen this year ...so far. Even better than "Push" of 2 weeks ago or even "Watchmen" last week. Those were 2 truly boring movies!

Frankly, the story of the "Departures" was so simple and there were no great special effects or drama. The movie captured the audience with the subject of death.

This musician, Daigo Kobayashi (Masahiro Motoki) became unemployed after the symphony orchestra he was working for, disbanded. So he moved back to his hometown with his wife.

There he cluelessly took on the job of that of the ceremonial “encoffination” (is there even such a word?) of corpses prior to cremation.

And from there and then Daigo developed "a deep respect for life in all its variations, and a profound empathy for people trying to make peace with the finality of death". (as quoted from the official movie website)

There was this scene in the movie where an old lady was about to be cremated and her adult son wanted to watch his mother's cremation. And as she was cremated in the furnace (not actually shown), the son was crying and calling out to his mother.

I turned to my side and I saw SO crying. Softly. Eyes red, trying to control his tears. And I am sure that quite a few audience in the cinema were tearing softly too. That's how emotional it was.

Well, as for me, yeah, I did felt the sadness and there were times when I was very near to tears. Especially when the living bade farewell to the dead. But I held myself back. It was difficult.

It was a really touching movie, worthy of the Oscar foreign film award 2009. The show had its great moments of brilliance, comic and sadness and at about 2 hours and 30 mins (150 mins total) felt just right.

And when the movie finally ended, well, the audience seemed reluctant to leave.

Normally when movies ended, audience would just rushed out. But not for this movie.

We were only of those who left after the end credits rolled for about 3 minutes. I think that quite a few of the audience were too embarrassed to be seen with red eyes and eyes tearing. So as the final credits rolled, they just sat there, trying to get over a hold over themselves.

After the movie, I confronted SO about his tears and that Bitch simply denied it. He simply refused to talk about it. He said it never happened. He claimed that he never cried. And then he gave a sheepish, guilty laugh.

Well, I am sure the movie touched quite a few people.

To me, it's sad, but not that sad. But yet, this is one of the sadder movies I have watched so far. I think few movies are this sad. But for a movie, dealing with the sensitive subject of death, sadness and tears are to be expected. All of us can identified with Death.

After all, all of us have to die some time or another. No one is truly immortal. And I am sure, we all knew someone who had passed away, be it a friend, a family, a relative or someone we know etc.

I rate this movie a 8.5 out of 10! A must watch! Especially when there is this surge of stupid movies this time of the year like "Street fighter - Chun li" and "Dragon ball revolution".

And when "Departures" the VCD or DVD comes out, I am going to get my hands on a copy.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

With all my heart

I was sitting on the toilet bowl, doing my business, when I thought of Gin.

It has been about 2 months since she died.

I remembered her warmth, her fur, the way she looked at me. I especially missed the way she looked at me. With love. Unconditional love that went all the way to her soul to mine.

No one loved her like I did and no one loved me like she did.

However, I didn't feel very sad. Just sad. And no matter how I tried, I just couldn't cry. Not any more!

Is there something wrong with me? I loved her so much and 2 months later, after her death, I just couldn't cry for her any more.

Have I gotten over her death? Is my mourning for her over?

That quickly? I still felt like some thing's missing that now she is not around. The whole place seemed so empty.

As I am typing this, I felt my eyes reddening and single droplets of teardrop appeared on both of my eyes.

And I am glad that these were tears.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Crying over Eason

I was testing my new Motorola Ipod blue tooth adapter. I was listening to the songs I transferred to the Ipod that day.

I have been listening to hours and hours of wireless music. And then I decided to explore Eason Chan 's album. I have already a few favorite songs from this album but I have not listen to all 30 songs.
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I strolled down the songs, one by one, skipping those whose rhythm did not catch my fancy. And then I heard 好久不見.

My mandarin is simply pathetic! I dun read the language and I also dun know much about what Eason is singing.

The song started really slow and boring. Really boring....and then the chorus came. It was slow and yet catchy. Especially the part where he sang, 好久不見 (long time no see).

It touched me and I started crying. It has been days since i last cried. I did not cried when I talked to my mother yesterday. I stifled back my tears then.

I wept and sobbed quietly. I was so afraid of waking SO who was sleeping beside. I knew it was foolish but I wanted my private moments of mourning and grieving. I did not want to share it with him.

And then I realised that in the 3 and half weeks that Gin passed away, I have not touched or held or hug another living thing. Bell, the maltese did not like to be touched. He dun mind being patted on the head or ear rubs, but he simply disliked being held.

How I missed holding Gin, hugging her, feeling her body warm against my body, feeling her love.

I wept as I listened to the song several times.


Wednesday, July 2, 2008

The crying game

I was very tired last night and so I retired to bed early, around 11pm. However, I could not fall asleep. So I read some magazines but it still did not put me to sleep. I dun feel like watching TV so I took out my PSP.

Justice

I am presently playing PSP, Justice League. The game was quite fun. it was okay, but not as great as compared to God of War.

I have played for about a few hours till 3am when I went to the kitchen to get a drink. And that reminded me of Gin. She used to follow me into the kitchen if I got up at night. And this time, she was not there.

She just was not there! Then it dawned on me that she is no more. She is now only a pile of ashes and dust. And I would never see or hold her again.

The fact struck me like a tonne of bricks and tears started to fall. By the time, I got back to bed, I was crying and crying and I just could not stop.

Frankly, I thought I was over this. That I had no more tears. I had told me myself that I would not cry anymore. And the last few days, I didn't. But last night, I just cried and cried. Tears keep coming out of my eyes. Tears I thought I dun have.

SO was next in bed, sleeping. He slept like a pig and did not hear a thing. I must have cried for about half an hour or so. I could not sleep. So I continued playing my psp game. On and off, I could not quite focus on the game. My thoughts occasionally drifted to Gin and tears just fell.

With Gin gone, I felt no one love me anymore. I never felt so alone and unloved. I used to busk in the warmth of Gin's love and now I felt nothing.

I simply felt so pathetic and sorry for myself.

I have been with SO for so many years, over ten years. When you have been in a relationship for that long, you dun fall in love, you simply loved. Sometimes, I can't feel SO love for me. The way I felt Gin's love.

As I am typing this, I am crying again. Not big sobs like last night. Just a little crying.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Someone else wants to cry

I was surfing online this morning when someone messaged me. He was someone whom I had chatted with occasionally. In fact, I was surprised that he messaged me. Sometimes I did snubbed people when I am not in the mood to chat, but today, I was feeling a bit generous....

luck: how are you?

iWicked: Hi...I am fine..u?

luck: I am ok, a little down though sometimes just wana cry but cant, a hug would do ;-)

iWicked: So what happen that made you want to cry? Work? personal? Actually, crying out could do you a lot of good. Dun hold it, just let it out.

luck: I am so tired, nothing seems to be going well.
work does not interest me. there is no love life everyone is looking for sex. i feel depressed all the time and i just need the one someone to say its all okay and it will be fine. ;-(

i am sure this is a passing phase and it will get better , i am just brooding for nothing . ;-) i am crying while talking to you so its working. thanks

iWicked: I lost a dear friend a few days back and i have been crying on and off these few days also.

I had depression before also and i found out sometimes if you let it out and cry, you will feel better...
frankly, there is love, you just have to know where to look for it. With your looks and status, i dun really see you having any problems in that area.

And yeah...it's a phase, you are probably going through a bad patch right now....
everything will be better soon...Maybe you just need a holiday?

luck: You are so kind. I am so sorry about your friend. its very diff to let go of some one you dearly love and especially if they are no more in this world in body, but they are always there is soul and spirit. so cheer up i dont think your friend wants to see you sad and miserable.

thanks for talking i dont even know you or what you look like, but you helped me find some solace and i appreciate that.

you need angels along the long road while travelling and i guess you are one for me today. ;-)
thanks again .

iWicked: My suggestion to you is as long as you feel the need to cry, just cry...You dun have to cry in the presence of others. Crying in your own privacy is also very comforting.
And yeah...you are welcome..,,and I am sure you will find someone you love someday. cheer up...

luck: haha...
No lah thats the least of my issues.
i am not typically looking for a partner and relationship and i hope i dont sound desperate. haha

iWicked: As for life, just dun think too much....sometimes when we think too much, too hard, depression creeps in...

luck: yes i agree.
Thanks .... going out to dinner now. hope to chat again.
take care and speak soon
hugs