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Monday, August 3, 2009

FEEDING FRENZY as buayas rise to boy bait

New Paper
03 August 2009

Reporter posing as 14-year-old boy online gets swamped with sex offers within seconds

FEEDING FRENZY as buayas rise to boy bait

By Special Correspondent

FOUR men were named and shamed and are being punished for performing obscene acts with an underaged boy. The cases of two others are coming up.

The New Paper reported this on Wednesday. That night, a reporter of the paper went online, posing as a 14-year-old boy seeking an older friend.

This was on the same gay website used by the six men to meet the 15-year-old involved.

So, did the court case make users of the website wary?

Not at all, going by this test.

Within 10 seconds, The New Paper reporter's computer screen was flooded with offers of sex.

There were so many pop-up windows of conversation that the reporter could not cope with the volume of men eager to meet the 'teen'.

In all, about 50 individuals got in touch within a five-hour period, spread over two days.

When the teen said he wanted to buy a new handphone, the buayas (sex predators) were quick to offer money, in exchange for sex acts.

Were they concerned that their target was underaged?

Their only concern was over keeping it quiet. You cannot tell anybody, they insisted.

No one warned the teen off the website, or tell him he was too young to be there.

One, just one, seemed to have a change of heart. This person too had started out like all the others, but after chatting for a while, said sex would be illegal and offered to give the teen $50 or a used handphone, if that was all he wanted.

Of course, the others were willing to hand over cash as well, and much more. But they all wanted sex.

The ages they gave ranged from 18 to 59, and they wanted to find out the boy's height, weight, race and something about his looks.

Some were more direct and asked: 'How much?'

They even came out with what could be incriminating information.

Two of them said they already had sex with boys as young as 14, when asked if they had any prior experience.

One man, who claimed he was a 35-year-old named Jackson, wanted to go beyond paying the teen to service him. He asked about younger siblings.

After finding out that the teen had younger brothers aged 9 and 7 (invented as bait), he offered $200 in total to perform lewd acts on them.

Did the predators know they would be committing an offence?

They all acknowledged that the acts suggested were against the law. They then told the teen to be 'discreet'.

The offers ranged from $30 to $350 for sex with the 14-year-old.

One person wanted the boy to 'pleasure him' while he took photographs. He was willing to pay $100.

Two others offered their handphones as payment for being pleasured.

One wanted to set the 14-year-old up with a 35-year-old man and was ready to pay $350.

He claimed to be a 32-year-old man, and left his handphone number and name as Roy.

For that amount, he wanted the boy to stay with him for a week at a hotel.

Online talk is one thing, but would they go further and meet their prey face to face?

The New Paper reporter posing as a teen set up meetings with four men.

They were to meet outside Toa Payoh Stadium on Thursday. All four turned up.

One man even waited for hours. (See report on facing page.)

Apparently, most of them wanted a quick deal.

While still online, many had asked to meet the same night, offering to drive by and pick the boy up, though it was 11pm.

Later, all agreed to meet a day or two afterwards, but only after much reassurance that they would not be let down.

When it came to the location, they were not as picky.

Some offered their cars and homes, while others asked if the boy's place was available.

The one who wanted to engage in sexual activities with the 14, 9 and 7-year-olds even asked if the boys' parents would be out another day.

When crocs feed on small prey, their hunger knows no bound, it seems.

What nerve! They show up in public place for prey

WOULD men who prey on boys online go so far as to meet them in public?

Yes, they would, going by the mini test done by The New Paper on Sunday.

After chatting with a reporter posing as a teen, the four men were individually asked to meet the boy at Toa Payoh Stadium at different times.

Each was told to carry a newspaper in their hands as an identifier. One insisted on bringing a magazine instead.

The reporter waited at a distance to observe the men at the appointed times.

Each of the four arrived at the appointed time, with the newspaper or magazine in hand.

They had not been shown any pictures of their prey - 'a 14-year-old boy'.

Nor did they have his contact number. All they had was his e-mail.

Yet, one of them waited for almost 11/2 hours, while the reporter watched discreetly from a distance.

No direct contact was made with any of the buayas (crocodiles in Malay and slang for sex predators) for safety reasons.

Two of the buayas appeared to be in their 20s, while one was in his 30s. Another looked in his 40s.

The highest bidder

The first appeared around 2.30pm.

The man, the oldest among those who turned up, held a folded newspaper in his hands and walked quickly into Toa Payoh Stadium, while surveying the people sitting near the entrance.

He wore khaki-coloured pants which had been rolled up to his ankles, a white polo T-shirt and slippers.

About 15 minutes later, he dashed out of the stadium, looking around anxiously as though expecting someone to pounce on him.

In his webchats, he had asked us to call him Henri.

He had also made the highest offer.

'If you can make me very happy, I'll give you $300,' he said.

The longest wait

The second man seemed the most desperate of the lot. He waited for 1 1/2 hours for his prey to turn up.

The man, who called himself Dave, aged 35, was 15 minutes late for his appointment.

During the previous day's chat, he had given the reporter posing as a boy his handphone number.

When he could not be spotted in the crowd, the reporter called him.

He was very well-spoken. He confirmed he had arrived and was standing beside his car as agreed, in a white T-shirt and grey shorts.

The man standing beside the silver car was chubby and looked nervous. At first he just stood there, apparently looking out for the schoolboy.

Then he moved to higher ground, craning his neck as though in search of something. When he got bored, he read a newspaper. Later, he lit a cigarette.

It was close to 5pm when he finally drove off, and even then his eyes continued to rove.

The double show

The third man, who claimed to be in his 20s, circled the area three times, before leaving.

All the while, his eyes seemed to be peeled for the young boy he had agreed to meet.

Later that night, the reporter received four e-mails from this man, expressing both disappointment and anger at the no-show.

He was told that another meeting would not be arranged as his reluctance to give a contact number made it easy for the 'boy' to be stood up.

The persistent man quickly gave his handphone number and MSN address.

All this took place via e-mail.

A meeting was arranged for the next day, at 4.45pm, and the man did as instructed - he turned up and lurked around, again without a newspaper.

The one from school

The last man, called Steve, went by the nickname 'ampm', and claimed to be a 23-year-old.

Our meeting had been arranged at 6.30pm.

He said he did not want to be late as he was coming from school.

Wearing white sneakers, jeans and a blue short-sleeve shirt, he walked around for 10 minutes before pulling a magazine out of his black backpack.

He then sat on the concrete bench outside the stadium for five minutes before making a call and walking off.

Later, he too sent an e-mail saying he had waited in vain.

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How should the law deal with cyber buayas? Trap them or...

SCARE THEM?

THEY are lurking in our midst, ready to pounce on young victims.
By Zaihan Mohamed Yusof

03 August 2009


THEY are lurking in our midst, ready to pounce on young victims.

In one case earlier this week, six men were caught for having paid sex with a 15-year-old boy.

The New Paper on Sunday's test revealed many more potential buayas (crocodiles in Malay and slang for sex predators) who hunt in cyberspace.

If they lay their hands on their victims, they could face up to two year's jail or pay a fine of up to $5,000 for committing obscene acts under the Children and Young Persons Act.

But can such acts be prevented in the first place?

Such buayas operate brazenly in Internet chatrooms, and it did not take much to flush them out with a one-line proposition.

To keep buayas at bay, two experts say urgent action is needed.

Mr John Shaznell from the Association of Telecommunication Industry of Singapore believes the predator's activities should be exposed to the authorities the moment he suggests a lewd act to a child.

Added Mr Shaznell, a Briton: 'It's a preventive measure that would deter potential harm from befalling underaged children.'

There are laws in place to protect minors in such instances. One, in particular, involves the offence of sexual grooming.

The law, introduced in 2007, states that a person above 21 is liable for the offence when he 'intentionally meets or travels to meet a minor with the intention of committing a sexual offence with the minor'.

The accused must also 'have met or communicated with the minor on at least two prior occasions'.

A person found guilty of sexual grooming may be fined and jailed for up to three years.

Change the law

Lawyer Satwant Singh believes the law needs to be amended to address the issue of Internet predators.

He said offenders should be punished if it can be proven from chatroom transcripts that they had enticed children to perform immoral acts.

In other words, don't wait for the predator to meet the child before acting.

'At the first meeting with the child, he could have sex with the child. We shouldn't wait for a sexual predator to destroy a child's life,' Mr Singh said.

'If we catch the instigator early, then we would be able to prevent the crime from taking place.'

While evidence to prove sexual grooming may be hard to collect, it is not impossible, said Mr Singh.

Evidence might include chatroom transcripts, the presence of pornography, or even a camera that is used to photograph the lewd acts if it is found on the culprit, when he meets or travels to meet the minor.

In Australia, a sexual predator can be stopped earlier, said Dr Raymond Choo, a Canberra-based researcher at the Australian Institute of Criminology.

Said Dr Choo, who was with the Singapore Police Force for five years: 'In Australia, the fact that an adult pretends to be a child to establish contact with the victim... can be viewed as an act preliminary to commission of a sexual offence.'

He added there have been a number of cases of children (or undercover law enforcement officers posing as children) having been approached online that have led to prosecution of those responsible in Australia and the United States.

The police do conduct anti-vice raids regularly in the real world. Should more be done in cyberspace as well?

Certainly, more resources will be needed if the authorities try to flush out the buayas through baiting methods.

But one question remains: How do you police the Internet and monitor the many conversations taking place freely in chatrooms?

One problem is that there isn't any particular organisation that is monitoring the predators, said lawyer SBalamurugan.

'The police can monitor but it still relies on a complaint from a victim,' he said.

If trapping the predators poses problems, should more be done to keep them at bay?

'Research on this topic is relatively new,' said Dr Choo.

Deterrent jail terms

'An interesting area of research is whether heavier custodial sentences are disincentives to engaging in online child grooming offences.'

Mr Poh Yeang Cherng, the manager of Touch Cyber Wellness & Sports said ultimately parents need to be educated on how to teach their children to protect themselves on the Internet.

He added: 'If parents are not aware of the content and values propagated through certain websites and channels, they will not be able to protect their younger children from it.'

Children, who may be unwilling to alert the police, can turn to websites like the Virtual Global Task Force, which consists of police forces from around the world working together to fight online child abuse.

SNARING CYBER BUAYAS

1 Internet chat

In Singapore this is still considered harmless.

But if the conversation takes on a suggestive nature, this could be used as evidence under the requirements of the sexual grooming offence.

In Australia, lewd acts proposed by an adult online can result in prosecution.

2 Meeting the minor

In Singapore, meeting or communicating with the minor 'on at least two prior occasions' can amount to sexual grooming, which carries a fine and a jail term of up to three years.

In Australia, face-to-face meetings, either actual or planned, may be enough to prosecute the offender.

3 Sexual act

If cyber chatting leads to sex with a minor, this would be in violation of Section 376B here.

The adult can be jailed up to seven years or fined, or both, when he obtains the sexual services of a person under 18years of age.

In the US, a man was sentenced to 280 months, because as a registered sex offender, he had enticed a 13-year-old girl he met online to engage in sex acts.

4 Pimping

In Singapore, when a minor has been used by an adult to sell sexual favours, the adult would have committed an offence under the Women's Charter, by living off the earnings of a prostitute.

Those guilty can be jailed up to five years, fined up to $10,000, or both.

In the US, coercing a minor to engage in commercial sex acts is an offence, carrying a fine and jail of not less than 15years or for life.

5 Trafficking

When somebody engages in the trafficking of women and girls, whether for sex or not, he can be jailed not more than five years and fined not more than $10,000.

In the US, the offence of trafficking a minor for the sole purpose of sexual activity carries a penalty of fine or jail term of not more than 30 years, or both.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Harassed Golden Mile tenants avoid toilets plagued by 'lurkers and gropers'

New Paper
28 July 2009


DIRTY HAZARD ZONE

Harassed Golden Mile tenants avoid toilets plagued by 'lurkers and gropers'

FOR the last two years, he has been afraid of using the toilets outside his office.

By Pearly Tan

Instead, Mr Tan (not his real name) walks some 100m to use the toilet at a petrol kiosk.

Why? Because he is convinced that some of the male toilets at his office, in Golden Mile Complex, are being used for homosexual acts.

The 28-year-old did not want to be identified because he is afraid of repercussions.

Said Mr Tan: 'I don't dare to use the toilets. Having to go out of the building to use the toilet is better than being sexually harassed.'

The businessman said he has been propositioned and even flashed at in the toilets, which are located on the second and third storeys of Golden Mile.

And the proposition he received came through a hole in the wall between toilet cubicles - a 'gloryhole' in sexual slang.

DIRTY HAZARD ZONE
VANDALISM: Partition hole that was glued shut and then ripped open.

These are holes used by perverts for peeping or for sexual activity.

When male reporters visited the toilets, the team found holes in the cubicles on both the second and third floors.

There were none on the first floor, probably because the partition walls are made of metal.

But on the higher floors, holes, one the size of a doorknob, at waist height, have been cut through the chipboard material.

Filthy loos

The toilets were also filthy.

Internet videos have surfaced, allegedly showing sex acts taking place through these holes in these cubicles.

They appear to have been taken in these toilets.

Online invitations are also issued for encounters in these toilets.

Said Mr Tan: 'In February this year, I was in the second last cubicle on the third floor at about noon when I heard a knock on the partition.

'A finger came through the hole and gestured. I just ignored it.'

Mr Tan said he has seen local and foreign men loitering in the toilets. According to him, their ages vary widely. Some are in their 20s while others are older 'ah peks'.

He said: 'Some are uncles who are really sloppy and walk around in shorts, T-shirts and slippers.

'Younger ones come in office wear and look like they took off from work.'

He recalled an incident last year. 'I was washing my hands and this man in his 30s wearing a striped shirt and office pants kept watching me.'

DIRTY HAZARD ZONE
BEWARE: Men are often seen loitering near the male toilets, eyeing the users.

Mr Tan said the man then suddenly ran into a cubicle and performed crude acts while watching his reflection in the mirror.

Stunned and scared, Mr Tan said he ran out, but the man gave chase.

'He followed me all the way to the escalator before he turned to go back to the toilet,' he claimed.

The men often hang around in the toilet, trying to make eye contact with those they target.

They walk around the toilet areas on both levels and sometimes even around the office units, said Mr Tan.

'They look up and down at you and watch you if you're going to the toilet.

'Usually the last two cubicles are occupied for hours. If you use the cubicle next to it, you can tell from their feet's position that they're facing the partition.'

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WHAT'S GOING ON?: Some occupy the same cubicle for hours

One of the holes appeared to have been previously glued shut, before it was forced open again, as dried glue remain around the hole.

Said a woman in her 60s, who gave her name only as Madam Tong: 'The place is full of ah kuas (Hokkien for homosexuals) just walking around every weekend.

'On the eve of public holidays, the whole place looks sleazy.'

She goes there every day to collect soft drink cans to sell.

Mr Tan, who has worked at Golden Mile Complex for five years, said the problem began only in 2007, when the second and third storey toilets were renovated.

'After the renovation, the partitions were changed from metal sheets to chipboard.

'That's when the holes started appearing. Nowadays, the toilet is disgustingly filthy.'

The New Paper spoke to a man, who identified himself only as Leonnie. He said he has used the cubicles several times.

Asked if he was worried about contracting diseases, he said: 'I don't need to know who's on the other side. Diseases are not an issue to me.'

Miss Germaine Chong, 28, often visits her boyfriend who works in a company in Golden Mile Complex.

She said: 'I used to tell my boyfriend to be careful when he goes to the toilet but now he knows better.

Avoid toilets

'He was groped in the toilet two months ago and now he won't use the toilets there.'

Despite the hazards, Mr Tan said that he has no plans to move his company out of the building.

'It's a family business and it's close to the places we need to access frequently. I think I'll just ignore what's going on and do my job,' said Mr Tan.

When The New Paper visited the toilets on 15 Jul, we noticed that one of the covered holes had been pried open.

Instructions had been scribbled on one of the wooden partitions.

DIRTY HAZARD ZONE
GROSS: Obscene proposals are scribbled in this third-storey loo.

On the opposite partition, one could see the next cubicle through a hole.

One person occupied the dimly-lit cubicle next door.

Strangely, the man sat in that cubicle for more than two hours.

Another tenant, who gave his name only as Mr Lee, said that he does not walk about the complex unless necessary.

'I hate it that the men are around all day and they look at you like prey to be eaten. The men who visit those holes are sick,' said the 53-year-old.

The management of Golden Mile Complex, Management Corporation Strata Title 446, declined comment.

The New Paper contacted lawyer Foo Cheow Ming, 45, of KhattarWong for comment on the legal issues involved.

'Assuming it's between two consenting adults, without threat or money involved, it's in violation of 377A Penal Code,' he said.

Under the act, any man who, in public or private, commits any act of gross indecency with another man, can be imprisoned for up to 2 years.

Mr Shashi Nathan, head of criminal litigation at Harry Elias, said: 'The minute sexual acts move into the public sphere, it's about public indecency.

'It's still a public place, although behind doors.

'The issue here is not the gender of the people involved. The police will also need to consider other issues such as age, consent and whether there is any exchange of money.'

additional reporting by Naveen Kanagalingam

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Adam Lambert...the Gay Idol?

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This is Adam Lambert, the American Idol contestant.

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This is Adam, making out with his ex-boyfriend.


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This is Adam, in a gay groin to groin pose with his ex.

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This is Adam, in glittering eye makeup, making out with his ex.

Well, when Adam first joined Idol, I told SO, this guy is gay and is giving out very gay, diva vibes.
SO was like...ya ya...every one who looked like that is gay.

And now that Adam very gay photos has surfaced, I am having the last laugh at SO's expense.

Well, the photos are pretty gross even by gay standards or for gay men.

As for his chances of becoming THE idol, chances are not that great.

America though liberal has its share of conservative audiences, who may not appreciate this type of "intimacy".

Monday, September 1, 2008

Fuglies going to Paris

I was at Watson with SO on sunday.

We were browsing at this hair care products when this 30 something fugly (fucking ugly) stood near us.

He was talking to this senior mature lady, whom I dun think was his mother or relative. Probably his colleague or church friend.

He was boasting to this lady friend that he is going to Paris next week.

The lady asked...And why you going to Paris and what would you do there?

And he was like....for the fabulous shopping...

And then he added....maybe I would send you a topless photo of myself to you.

SO and I were rolling our eyes. And I think so was his lady friend. He was so gay, so flamboyant and loud. And there were quite a few people around who heard that conversation. And that fugly knew everyone was hearing their conversation.

He then told his lady friend...and when I return, I would be all buff and tanned. And with that, he sashayed out of the store, swaying his hips!

Gross! What a show off! Attention grabbing slut!

And why are fuglies going to Paris?

Another fugly I know, who is actually SO's brother went to Paris some weeks back. And SO was biting his tongue in envy! He was that jealous of his bro going to Paris.

And the thing was that fugly did not brought anything back from Paris. Absolutely nothing. Nothing for his mother either. No souvenirs of whatever sort.

Made us wonder why he went to Paris in the first place and why fuglies like to go to Paris.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

The dude from Bangkok Love Story

Last year, I watched this thai gay movie, "Bangkok Love Story".
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Well, the story plot was paper thin, the acting was pathetic and in some parts bordering on the ridiculous. The actors were stony faced through out. I even found myself laughing at certain supposedly erotic parts of the movie.

The only thing I liked was the short haired actor in the movie, Tohssawat. He was the cutest thai guy I have ever seen. And he said he's straight in real life and took the part to get into the movie industry.
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The movie plot as described by Yahoo movies.
"Bangkok Love Story" tells the story of Maek (Rattanaballang Tohssawat), an assassin who is sent to kill Iht (Chaiwat Tongsaeng). However, a twist of fate brings the men together, and Maek refuses to kill Iht and takes a bullet in a gunfight. Iht takes Maek to a safe house and nurses him back to health. A strong bond develops between them, revealing emotions from the men's hearts to each other.



Anyway, I just read an article that says that one of the lead actors, the short haired guy in the movie, Rattanaballang Tohssawat was only 17 years old at the time of filming. Only 17? Gosh! I couldn't believe it. He played some police officer with a girlfriend. I thought he was at least in his mid 20s.

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Fridae
20 Aug 2008

Celluloid to iron: Chaiwat ''Tob'' Thongsang
By Vitaya Saeng-Aroon

Chaiwat ''Tob'' Thongsang of Bangkok Love Story fame speaks to Fridae's Vitaya Saeng-Aroon about success, taking on a gay role as a 17-year-old rookie actor and his future plans.

Celebrities like Arnold Schwarzenegger started out as body-builders and later became actors.
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Thai actor Chaiwat Thongsang is doing it in reverse. Chaiwat, whose nickname is “Tob,” was only 17 years old when he was cast in his first leading role in the controversial feature film Puen Koo Rak Meung Wah (Bangkok Love Story), released September 2007.

In the movie, he played “It,” a closeted gay man in uniform who is about to marry his pretty fiancée. But by chance he falls in love with a lone hit man hired to assassinate him.

The movie broke new ground in mainstream Thai cinema with the portrayal of two masculine men in intimate scenes including deep kissing and love-making. For decades, the big Thai studios produced movies with themes or sub-plots about sad transgender characters and comedies portraying gay men as drag queens.

Not so with Tob, who was 79 kg and 187 cm when he was cast and already looked like an aspiring body-builder. He said he became interested in body-building when he was 14, but only got serious about it after the success of Bangkok Love Story, which afforded him the time and money to devote himself to the sport.

His personal success is all the more ironic given how most actors still shun gay roles, seeing them as the kiss of death for their careers. As with Tob’s transition from actor to body-builder, his attitude toward gay roles is the opposite of most actors.

“I wanted the part because I knew taking a gay role could quickly make me famous,” Tob said, adding that he’s more than willing to take on the role of another gay hunk, if offered.

“No doubt about it,” he said. “If I hadn't played It, I wouldn't have gotten famous and received more job offers,” adding that recently he was the only guy picked out of 25 male actors in casting for a foreign film production to be announced. He was also signed up to be a presenter in a TV commercial ad for a muscle-pain relief balm gel product.
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While doing publicity interviews for the movie, Tob said the most oft-asked question was how he felt about kissing a man. He always gave the same answer: he's straight, but also a professional: “After many takes, I got used to it. It's just acting.”

Late last year, he was seen dancing at a famous gay bar on Samet Island with his girlfriend and her gay pals.

“It's fun going out with them,” said Tob. “They're members of a cheerleading team at the university where my girlfriend is studying. In the group, it's only me and another guy who are straight. I really had a good time on the trip.”

Now standing 190 cm and over 90 kg, Tob turned 20 a few months ago and is ready for a new direction, though he’s not giving up on acting or modeling work, which pay the bills. He said he believes he can tone down his big muscles if they do not fit the outfits for fashion shoots or movie roles.

Tob made his remarks in a two-part special interview with the male lifestyle TV show Passport For Men, now available with English subtitles on the Internet and on Bangkok cable TV.

In the show's special two-part report, “Adonis,” Tob and his buddies talk about the tough training sessions and how they enjoy the sweat, shouting, and companionship of one another.

“I'm training to compete in a body-building contest in October this year,” he said. “It's my dream. I'm not planning to be another 'Hulk,' but I want my muscles toned.”

He plans to compete in Body Classic category, under which the contestants develop toned muscles without the bulk.

One of his trainers Sitthi Charoenrith is a five-time Mr Thailand champion and two-time International Federation of Body Builders world champion. “Since Tob has strong interest in the sport and he is a well-build, I believe that he stands a great chance to join the national team.

“Please come to the competition and give me support,” he said.


Passport For Men Special (Eng sub): Adonis 1: Tob Chaiwat


Passport For Men Special (Eng sub): Adonis 2: Tob Chaiwat

Cute dude but sounds a bit too whiny speaking in thai.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

About CC

CC is a close friend of SO. And this is his revelation on life as indicated online.

Frankly,what can I say but wished him the best in his choice of pursue of happiness. We just didn't quite expect it, though we were suspecting it.

And did I forget to mention that CC is fugly? (fugly means fucking ugly)

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2006-01-18 23:33:57

about life...

hv u ever thought of why u r in this planet? for whatever reason it is, according to yr religion and beliefs, u hv to continue yr life...

life is a matter of choices... u can choose to b happy or unhappy... so choose to b happy... to b happy, follow yr heart and do what u like n love to do... only when u r happy, yr life is worth living...

why m i saying all these? it is becos i hv experienced it and i know better what i want to do in life...

i m actually living in a closet in the straight society... i m absolutely straight looking and is quite easy to get along with... all this while, i shared with many ppl about anything in life, but i always regret that i cant share with them abt my sex orientation... becos i dont want to affect my life out there... i believe u know what i mean...

all this while, i like guys but i can only take a glance or a discreet look at them... i dont feel good abt it... recently, i unintentionally came into this gay/bisexual circle through a website and felt excited abt it... i got hooked onto the site and subsequently more involvement in other sites too, including fridae.

i hv made many friends this one month plus and i hv enjoyed my new life... although it somehow has screwed up my life a bit, i believe i can readjust my life plans... now i feel happy becos i can talk to u about anything under the sun and in the dark... i feel happy that i m reborn... :-)

Friday, July 25, 2008

The teacher who revealed he was gay

I am sure some of us were wondering what happened to Otto, the gay RI teacher who revealed that he was gay in his blog last year.

Some people thought he was incredibly brave to come out when he was working in a "sensitive" job as a teacher. Others thought he was incredibly stupid. Just as he admitted it was naive of him to think it was just as easy coming out.

What was he thinking?

Within 2 days, he took down that blog entry and faced the music. He had to answer to his school, his students, the society.

Frankly, I am glad that he did not faced much persecution over what he did and that life is back to normal for him.

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The New Paper
25 July 2008

TEACHER WHO REVEALED HE IS GAY

His life now revolves around cartooning

By Ng Tze Yong

ONCE a teacher in Raffles Institution (RI), he now wants to become a world-class cartoonist. The life-changing move was a consequence of one decision that Mr Otto Fong made - to reveal that he is gay.

As a teacher, Mr Fong had done cartoons in his spare time and even won awards for his work. But the outing incident that caused a mini-storm proved to be an awakening of sorts for him.

'I had always asked my students to chase their passion,' he told The New Paper, in his first interview since the controversy. 'I loved teaching, but my real passion was cartooning. I realised that if I didn't leave, I would not be true to what I said to my students.'

So he packed up and left.

COMIC BOOK SERIES

Since then, he has been working on a new book, the third in the popular Sir Fong comic series which he started in 2005. The book, which will retail in bookstores nationwide next month, uses comics to teach students in their early teens about science.

Life after RI is busier than before, he says. He gives tuition part-time ('Goodness, I miss teaching.') and spends the rest of his time working on his cartoons and giving talks on cartooning.

But still fresh in his mind is the day he outed himself in his blog entry, almost a year ago. He remembers the anxiety of returning to school the Monday morning after the news had spread.

He loved his job, his school and his students. But that morning, the spring in his step was gone.

He stepped through the school gate feeling a sudden dread.

Three days before, his blog entry that he was gay had sparked a heated debate. Some supported his honesty. Others - especially parents - asked him to leave the job, fearing his influence on impressionable boys.

His 2,000-word blog entry brought even Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong into the fold. In Parliament a month after the incident, PM Lee made a call to Singaporeans to strive for an inclusive society with space for all.

But that morning, all Mr Fong was thinking of was: 'I want to skip the morning assembly.' He imagined everyone's eyes on him, he said.

Then, out of nowhere, the head prefect appeared and asked to shake his hand. 'Mr Fong, you have my support,' the student said. It almost brought tears to his eyes.

Until today, many find it hard to understand his reasons for 'outing' himself.

Mr Fong maintains, as he did then, that it was a letter intended only for his colleagues and old boys whom he was close to. 'I had been at RI for several years. I went through ups and downs with my colleagues. They became like family to me,' he said.

'They invited me to their weddings and to their homes. But what could I do? 'If I invited them to my home, I would have to hide pictures of my partner. They would see a single king-sized bed, four pillows, and think that I'm either living with an unmarried woman or a man.

'I didn't want to lie to them anymore.'

His childhood struggle with his sexuality left deep scars. 'All that I had heard about gay people was negative.'

After mulling over it for months, Mr Fong finally took the leap of faith. He wrote an entry in his blog one Friday night and sent out a mass e-mail, asking friends to read his blog.

He says he still does not know how things got out of hand from there.

'NAIVE'

He also thinks he was naive. 'I had only started blogging two months before,' he said. 'I didn't realise the power of blogs. Sometimes, I would write something and tell all my friends, 'Come, read my blog' and only something like 10 or 15 would actually visit. 'So, for me, blogs were still something private.'

After his entry, Mr Fong watched with growing trepidation as the counter on his blog rocketed. By Monday, it had garnered a staggering 15,000 hits.

That first day back in school was filled with crisis meetings. In class, the students were unusually well-behaved, he remembered.

'I broke down once when my principal asked me why I did that,' he said.

The media approached him. Some parents left nasty messages with the school. Many of his students, however, stood by him. 'I found out later that a few of my students had taken it upon themselves to watch out for me, if there was going to be any trouble or snide remarks,' he said.

Things got heated between him and his parents, even though he had told them when he was 17 that he was gay. 'Last time, they could keep it within the family. Now, they were reading about me in Lianhe Zaobao. It was tough for them,' said Mr Fong.

SCHOOL WAS SUPPORTIVE

At the end of last year, Mr Fong left teaching. It was his choice, he said. 'The school never once asked me to quit. They are very supportive of teachers if they see we have our hearts in the right place,' he said.

Nowadays, he invites his ex-colleagues to his house regularly. 'They are now part of my life. I feel like, finally, I have shown them how much I treasure their friendship,' he said.

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Lianhe Zaobao
12 September 2007

RI male teacher comes out on blog

by Lu Caixia

A male teacher of a local elite school came out as a homosexual on his blog, and attracted much attention. In the end, he rapidly deleted this open letter.

The Ministry of Education responded that it does not permit teachers to endorse homosexuality openly, because teachers have special authority - they have influence over students, and are often regarded as role models.

The 38-year-old- Raffles Institution male teacher Otto Fong started teaching 8 years ago. He worked in the theatre before he started teaching.

He published this 2000-word open letter to his friends and colleagues on his personal blog. The letter is dated 7th September, and published on the 8th.

This blog was featured in the local blogger site tomorrow.sg, and many netizens were engaged in discussion, including students from Raffles Institution. The open letter was deleted within 3 days of its publication on the internet.

However, some netizens have saved a copy of the open letter, thus it is still circulating on the internet.

Otto Fong admitted frankly that he is gay in his open letter. He also hoped Singaporeans can be more tolerant towards people like him.

He said in his letter: "When I became a teacher in 1999, I looked back on the good guidance my own teachers gave me as a template, and tried to be a better teacher to my students. Besides teaching them Science, I spent considerable effort in imparting good social values.

Yet, in the eight years I have taught, I have done little for that small group of students who are gay... When my niece returned from school saying, "Gays are disgusting!" I knew she learnt that hatred from a classmate, who had in turn absorbed that hatred from a parent."

"This is the same environment of hatred I grew up in, as a gay teenager and student."

Otto Fong said that he was motivated by some personal reasons later on to come out openly, and stop being "a bonsai tree at the mercy of people's trim and cut".

One of the reasons for this motivation was MM Lee's speech in April. MM Lee was engaging in a dialogue with young PAP, and he questioned the validity of criminalizing homosexuality when it is an in-born condition.

Otto Fong said, "I felt that in order to reach my fullest potential as a useful human being, I must first fully accept myself, and face the world honestly. I have lived long enough to know that what I am is not a disease, an aberration or a mental illness."

He narrated the story telling his parents about his sexual orientation, and gained their support. They also accepted his partner.

Otto Fong also said that the only thing gay people want is to have the same rights and dignity as other people. He hopes that he will have the same respect from society, just like other Singaporeans.

Otto Fong's open letter sparked off much discussion on the internet and in school, after it was widely circulated and deleted. Zaobao's journalist contacted Otto Fong yesterday to inquire the reason for deleting his letter, but he told the journalist that he cannot be interviewed at the moment in his email reply.

Raffles Institution's statement to Zaobao revealed some clues. "As a school, we need to be considerate towards the views of stakeholders, especially parents who are uncomfortable with teachers who endorse homosexuality."

"In this incident, Mr Fong hoped that his colleagues and friends would read his blog. He has already clarified that he has no wish to promote homosexuality to students; therefore he did not give his blog address to his students. However, he discovered that some students read his blog as well, and thus he decided to delete it." The Ministry of Education said, "MOE supports the school's way of handling this incident, because this is in line with the Ministry's stand."

Otto Fong was an engineer before joining the Chinese theatre. He wrote a play about homosexuality" Different Species" in 1992. Later, he resigned to study movie directing at Beijing Film Academy, and began to teach in 1999. He is a comics artist as well, and published a series of "Sir Fong" comics.

Interviewed parents and students: Sexual orientation should not be a concern

After the open letter is released on the internet, a lot of netizens are speculating whether Otto Fong will lose his teaching position. Zaobao's journalist tried to ask him about this possibility, but he declined to respond.

However, a student's blog revealed that Otto Fong planned to leave the teaching profession before writing this open letter. Even if he quits, it may not be due to this incident.

Furthermore, parents and students interviewed say that if a teacher has upright character and dedication for teaching, his sexual orientation should not be a concern.

Raffles Institution Secondary 4 student Huang Maoxuan (16) described Otto Fong's teaching style to be very lively and fun, and sustains students' interest. He is a good teacher, and hard to come by.

He feels that even if Otto Fong comes out publicly, it would not affect students' impression on him.

Parent Wu Shuqian (46, housewife) thinks that dedicated and responsible teachers should not be ostracized or reprimanded because they are gay. She said, "From what I know, Mr Fong is good at teaching. A teacher like him is hard to come by. It would be a great pity if he is forced to leave because of this incident."

Another parent Mdm Lim (42, housewife) said that she felt a little uncomfortable when she first found out that a teacher at school came out publicly. However, she felt that if he does not overstep boundaries, there is no need for him to leave.

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The New Paper
13 September 2007

Gay teacher outs himself in blog posting. Then he removes it as...

Blog not meant for his students

by Liew Hanqing

His online declaration was straightforward - 'I'm gay.' But it was no ordinary blog. It was written by a 38-year-old teacher at one of Singapore's top boys' schools.

He claims it was only meant to be read by his colleagues and some friends. But somehow word spread and it got online forums buzzing.

The school, however, is not over-reacting to the teacher's honest and sober admission. And this is why we are not naming him or his school.

As more people learnt of it, the teacher removed the post - just two days after he wrote it on 8 Sep.

In the entry, the teacher said he was inspired to come out of the closet and write openly about his sexuality after attending a forum on gay teachers and students.

UNCOMFORTABLE

In an e-mail statement to The New Paper, a spokesman for his school said it is 'mindful of the views of (the school's) stakeholders, especially parents who would not be comfortable with placing their children under the charge of a teacher who advocates homosexuality.'

The spokesman confirmed that the school had spoken to the teacher concerned. 'In this instance, (the teacher) intended the blog to be read only by his colleagues and friends.

'He has clarified that he had no intention of advocating homosexuality to students. Thus, he did not give the link to any of his students. 'However, now that he is aware that some students have been reading his blog, he has decided to take down the blog.'

The reaction of the local Internet community has been mixed.

Former students and other netizens have left messages on his blog and on other websites, many in support of his decision to go public about his sexual orientation.

In the original blog post, the teacher recalled having felt attracted to classmates of the same sex from the time he was in Primary 6. He wrote: 'As a teenager, I was very quick to sense society's aversion towards the 'sissies' in my classes. I worked hard to distance myself from them.

'While I was successful in modifying my outward behaviour, my sexual orientation remained unchanged. 'My denial gnawed at me, and the suppression of my true self resulted in self-destructive behavior during my overseas university years.'

He 'spent more than 20 years in the professional closet', keeping his sexual orientation under wraps to all but a 'handful' of colleagues. Explaining his decision to speak openly about his sexuality, the teacher wrote: 'Being in the closet, pretending to be straight, trimming our true selves to suit the whims and expectations of others, is just like being a human bonsai tree.'

He also wrote: 'I am still a teacher. 'My main purpose and joy is to teach our youngest citizens, the same ones who will be the leaders of our nation tomorrow.'

NOT SEXUAL DEVIANT

The teacher also said being gay did not make him a sexual deviant. 'I'm not, as some people like to label gays, a paedophile, a child molester, a pervert or sexual deviant.'

While some have voiced support for the teacher's online confession, others say he should have kept the information private.

A student from another school, Jasper Chen, 18, said he admired the teacher's honesty and courage. 'He risked losing his job in an attempt to transform the public's perception of gays in the teaching profession,' he said.

Parents like Mrs Catherine Gasper, 48, however, were less enthusiastic about the teacher's candour. 'He should keep such things private - I don't think it's our business to know about his personal life,' said Mrs Gasper, who has a son in Primary 5. 'It (his sexual orientation) doesn't really matter, as long as he's a good teacher - but parents will likely become wary because they don't know enough about the gay community.

'There's a lack of awareness that comes from a lack of contact with (gays), so people will tend to go along with their own biases and prejudices.'

Added one secondary school teacher, who declined to be named: 'In this case, the teacher is in contact with boys who are still young and impressionable. 'Their sexual preferences may still be somewhat unclear and in flux, so it's probably best that the teacher doesn't reveal too much, too soon.

'There is a line that must be drawn between a person's public and personal life.'

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Straits Times
15 September 2007

THINKING ALOUD

A teacher's disclosure and the issue is out in the open

By Paul Jacob, Deputy Political Editor

We are supposed to be a society that is evolving and becoming more accepting of changing social norms.

But Mr Otto Fong should know that we remain largely and deeply conservative.

Despite what blog- and Net-savvy Internet users are calling a brave outing online last week by the teacher at a top all-boys school about his being gay, there is a larger and quieter majority more apt to regard the recent actions of Mr Fong as some kind of misguided honesty or stunt, one that they worry could cause more harm to those students that the disclosure purports to help.

By all the accounts that I have seen online and in The New Paper, Mr Fong, 38, is an A-one teacher; one who has continued to receive the support of those students who blog, or who have responded to discussion threads on the numerous sites that picked up on his outing.

While he has removed his posting from his blog, reportedly after discussions with his superiors, many others have posted copies, so it continues to generate debate.

There are those who salute his decision and the honesty with which he has put his case across.

It must be a difficult decision to go public about being gay.

But it is one thing to do so to those nearest and dearest - family, relatives, friends - and another to do so on an openly accessible platform like the Internet.

It is apt to spark all manner of responses and consequences, as Mr Fong has now found out - most immediately, of course, in the reaction from his employers.

It is not just in the nature of Singapore society and the variegated opinions that exist here about how we feel towards those who are gay.

The outcome of that debate continues to be moulded, with the loudest voices not surprisingly coming from those at both ends of the spectrum of tolerance.

But in the issue at hand, it is also being shaped by the nature of the job that Mr Fong holds and, with that, the kind of interactions and influence he can have over his classes.

No one has made any accusations and nothing untoward exists about his conduct, it must be emphasised here.

But it is in the perceptions, the fertile imaginations, the what-ifs - all of which colour the discussions.

Let me illustrate with the case of Senator Larry Craig of Idaho in that most often-cited bastion of tolerance and openness, the United States.

He pleaded guilty to disorderly conduct in a Minnesota airport men's room after being arrested for lewd conduct. He then withdrew his confession, strenuously denied he was gay, and said he did nothing inappropriate.

But under pressure from a Republican Party concerned about the damage to its image and that of the legislature he represents, he resigned.

Clearly, over there, the private conduct of a public individual matters.

What about here in Singapore?

Mr Fong recognises and has acknowledged that he is part of a profession and an institution that 'moulds the future generation of Singapore leaders'.

What puzzles me is what he hoped to achieve in making his announcement. Was it to demonstrate that there is no shame in being of a different sexual orientation? Or was it to show that there is no bar on what profession you can be in?

Or that he believes that if senior politicians have become more accommodating with the presence and contributions that gays are making to society, then it is fine to out oneself?

Or maybe, as he appears to indicate, he was prompted by a point made by a young adult at a forum about the lack of guidance he had growing up as a gay teenager.

Was that the trigger? That in outing himself, he would be in a position to be of help to those youths in school who may be uncertain about their orientation at this stage of their lives?

If so, what then would he tell those who seek his advice?

One has to question the ability and the appropriateness of someone who has outed himself being able to provide neutral, unbiased advice - and the wisdom of whichever direction it is that the puzzled student has been pointed towards.

His supporters, admirers and students provide strong backing for his continued value as an educator. Some would argue that he is, after all, the same person he was before.

Perhaps Mr Fong's decision to out himself has a simpler and more fundamental basis. It springs from a natural desire to be part of a society which accepts someone for what he or she is. It was a difficult decision that he made.

But this does not obscure the fact that he is the only full-time teacher, as far as I am aware, who has gone public about his sexual orientation.

Like it or not, fair or unfair, that has now changed the dynamics of how he will be viewed by those with whom he interacts, colleagues and parents included.

Ditto, I think, for others in the profession. Because let's be honest about this: Mr Fong is not the only gay teacher in the system.

His decision may not have the well-meaning effect he intended. He should have thought about how it could affect colleagues elsewhere before making his arbitrary decision.

Many here remember the position espoused by former prime minister Goh Chok Tong in 2003 about the Government employing openly homosexual people, even in sensitive jobs.

But in the light of Mr Fong's disclosure, it falls on his employers and, more broadly, the Education Ministry, to manage what fallout there is to come from the episode, including telling the public its stand on gay teachers in its ranks.

Much as I was initially inclined to suggest to Mr Fong that it was best to have let sleeping dogs lie, his decision is generating pertinent discussion on an issue that the ministry now has little choice but to deal with.

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Otto Fong's open letter

source: Otto Fong's blog, 10 September 2007
(which has since been deleted from his blog)
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Otto Fong in RI


I am Otto Fong. I have been teaching Science in Raffles Institution for the last eight years.

Being a teacher has been the most rewarding part of my professional life thus far. My students continue to amaze me daily with their wit, maturity, independent thinking and leadership. It is very fulfilling that I am a part of an institution that moulds the future generation of Singapore’s leaders.

Leaders are people who can rise above the tide of popular opinion, people who are guided by the conviction of rightness and justice and in being so guided, lead others towards that right path.

Recent events leading to my action

Recent events have made me decide to write this open letter. In April this year, Minister Mentor Mr Lee Kuan Yew – one of the school’s greatest alumni – called homosexuality a "genetic variation", questioning the validity of criminalising gay sex. In July, MP Baey Yam Keng expressed support for the repeal of Section 377A of the penal code (which criminalises gay sex acts). In August, Malaysian columnist and ordained pastor Oyoung Wenfeng released his inspiring new Mandarin book "Tong Gen Sheng", encouraging gay men and women to come out of the closet.

A few evenings later, I attended a forum organised by People Like Us on gay teachers and students. A few brave twenty-something guys asked, "Why has there been so little guidance available to me as a gay teenager?" It was a question that I had asked myself often, growing up.

When I became a teacher in 1999, I looked back on the good guidance my own teachers gave me as a template, and tried to be a better teacher to my students. Besides teaching them Science, I spent considerable effort in imparting good social values: give up your seats to the needy, save the handicapped parking lot for those in wheelchairs and their caretakers, respect people regardless of profession or social status.

How hate is perpetuated

Yet, in the eight years I have taught, I have done little for that small group of students who are gay. When the religious group Focus on the Family masqueraded as sex guidance counselors and gave a talk full of misinformation about homosexuality to our students, I was furious but kept my mouth shut.

When my niece returned from school saying, "Gays are disgusting!" I knew she learnt that hatred from a classmate, who had in turn absorbed that hatred from a parent. I knew that this hatred has been perpetrated for generations. But hatred grew out of fear, and hatred, as a line in a movie goes, "leads to the Dark Side." This is the same environment of hatred I grew up in, as a gay teenager and student.

Until Section 377A* is repealed, there will be precious little the Ministry of Education can do to help these students. As a teacher, I am bound by my professional duty to follow the directives of my superiors.

While these events helped crystallize my decision to come out of the closet, my motivation remains deeply personal.

My family and I

As far back as primary six, I have been aware of my attraction towards classmates of the same sex. For those who argued about nurturing factors of the family, my brother and sister grew up under the same parents and remained heterosexuals despite growing up with me in close proximity.

As a teenager, I was very quick to sense society’s aversion towards the ‘sissies’ in my classes. I worked hard to distance myself from them. While I was successful in modifying my outward behavior, my sexual orientation remained unchanged. My denial gnawed at me, and the suppression of my true self resulted in self-destructive behavior during my overseas university years.

Fortunately, my American fraternity mates were supportive. I began to see a counselor who helped me accept myself for who and what I am.

Returning to Singapore, I came out to my family. My father, mother, brother and sister, out of love for their son and brother, walked the long road to acceptance. It was not easy for them, but they loved me before I came out, and they love me after. When I finally settled down with my longtime companion (we have been together for more than nine years), my entire family made sure my nieces and nephews included us in their lives. I loved my family too much to keep them in the dark, to deny them the chance to really know me. And they loved me too much to let some old prejudice tear our family apart.

I kept my sexual orientation a secret at work, and only a handful of my colleagues knew about me.

I don’t want to be a bonsai tree

Not counting my childhood, I have spent more than twenty years in the professional closet. I am nearing my fourth decade on Earth. While I have had some successes in life, I am not content to be just average. As I have often told my students, "Why be average when you can be your best?"

Do you know what a bonsai tree is? A bonsai tree is an imitation of a real tree. It is kept in a small pot with limited nutrients, trimmed constantly to fit someone else’s whim. It looks like a real tree, except it can’t do many things a real tree can. It cannot provide shelter, it cannot find food on its own; its life and death are totally reliant on its owner. It is the plant version of the 3-inch Chinese bound foot for women: useless and painful.

Being in the closet, pretending to be straight, trimming our true selves to suit the whims and expectations of others, is just like being a human bonsai tree. By staying in the closet, we cannot even hope to be average, much less above and beyond average.

I felt that in order to reach my fullest potential as a useful human being, I must first fully accept myself, and face the world honestly. I have lived long enough to know that what I am is not a disease, an aberration or a mental illness.

Hate is not a religious value

Many people have cited many ‘reasons’ for hating homosexuals, just as many people tried to justify their views that the Earth was flat, that the darker skinned should always be inferior, and that women should subjugate their lives to men. The teachings of the world’s great religious traditions offer many words of wisdom, but the interpretations of their human followers are not infallible. As Jesus said in his Sermon on the Mount (yes, a personal Bible was given to me by a great lady and I honored her by reading the book), we must love our neighbors as ourselves. It is a simple teaching, but one that’s rarely followed by those who seek to oppress people different from themselves. The path to enlightenment always faces stubborn resistance. As Mahatma Gandhi said, "First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you..."

There are some people who are using homosexuality to advance their personal ambitions vis a vis religion. They claim that the homosexual ‘agenda’ is to make the whole world gay and threaten the stability of the family. Yet, let us examine the evidence: Denmark, Norway and Sweden, the first countries to legalise gay marriage, are more stable than ever – their population has not been converted by gays and their heterosexual divorce rates have even decreased since gays have been afforded legal rights. (William N. Eskridge, Jr and Darren R. Spedale, Oxford University Press, 2006).

The only agenda gay people have is to be able to live with the same rights and dignity as our heterosexual brothers and sisters. Our very vocal opponents are the ones actively preying on innocent people, recruiting them to their cause by spreading fear and misinformation. I hope thinking people will quickly see that it is this small group of vocal objectionists who have a more dangerous agenda, that their fight with gay people has nothing to do with what’s right or wrong, but is merely a litmus test of their political influence. For peace and prosperity to continue, Singapore must always uphold secularism, where each different segment of the population respects the beliefs and rights of the others.

Can a country with no natural resources afford to drive away its own citizens?

There is a very pragmatic reason that you should support the rights and dignity of gay Singaporeans: in this globally-competitive era, Singapore needs her gay sons and daughters, just as we need our Singaporean Muslims, Buddhists, Christians, Hindus, immigrants, men and women, old folks and young. Most importantly, we need those gay sons and daughters because those gay sons and daughters are Singaporean Muslims, Buddhists, Christians, Hindus, immigrants, men and women, old folks and young. Can a country without natural resources continue to flourish when it starts to drive away its own children?

As I said before, leaders are people who are guided by the conviction of rightness and justice and in being so guided, lead others towards that right path.

I am still a teacher. My main purpose and joy is to teach our youngest citizens, the same ones who will be the leaders of our nation tomorrow. But, I feel I am shortchanging both society and myself by staying in the closet. I must be true to myself. If my colleagues and students, both gay and straight, see that being true to one’s own self has great value, perhaps we can produce a new generation who is truly courageous. A new generation of young people who are proud to be themselves, no matter what difference they have from their classmates. Then I will have succeeded in providing them a better education than I had the opportunity to receive during my years in school.

So here’s what I am, and I am a friend in need at the moment

So here it is: I, Otto Fong, have always been and always will be a gay man. When you ask about my spouse, I will say he is a man. I am as proud being gay as you are proud being straight. I am not, as some people like to label gays, a pedophile, a child molester, a pervert or sexual deviant. I did not choose to be gay, just like heterosexuals did not choose to be straight. I am not going to hell (not for being gay anyway).

I am not going back in the closet. When you ask me who I am, I will answer: I am a son, a brother, a long-time companion, an uncle, a teacher, a classmate, a colleague, a part of your community, a HDB dweller, a Singaporean. And I am also gay.

I would like to enjoy the respect that all other Singaporeans enjoy. I will not let the closet bind my feet, because I am made to sprint. I am not interested in being a bonsai tree, my DNA is programmed to climb higher. My heart aspires to reach my fullest potential as a human being.

I hope, dear friends and colleagues, that you look back and remember what I am, and see that I am not someone you fear. I am essentially the same person – flawed, imperfect, but brought up properly by two loving parents to lead a productive, beneficial and meaningful life. My friends and family love me for who I am, and I hope you can too. I come out to you with as much hope and trepidation as when I first come out to my mother and father. Your support and understanding are very important to me at this moment.

Thank you, may you prosper in health and soul.

Friday, July 4, 2008

Death of a Doctor Part 2

One of the most popular post of this blog had been "Death of a Doctor". And yesterday, as another visitor visited my blog, he or she left a trail from Google, which led me to the deleted and lost post of Dino about the doctor Adrian Yeo.

Dino had deleted or locked up his post about AY after the papers published excerpts of that post.

But the thing about internet technology is that once something has been posted online, the information remained online, (in some dark remote server somewhere) even though the original information has been deleted.

I had been wondering about that lost post. I wondered about the last days of AY and what kinda of person he had been in real life. There was hardly any real life information on AY, the person. And frankly, I am glad that I found the information.

I have considered whether to post what Dino had deleted. I could have kept the information to myself but I am sure that some where, there is also someone like me, curious about a dead person whom we have never met. Or maybe, someone who did knew AY once and now wanted to know what happened.

I have read the post and found it to be sincere and touching. So I have posted it verbatim.

For all those who knew and for those who did not knew AY. His memories would live on.

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Jun. 23rd, 2008 at 10:31 AM

I'm sure many of us remember the story of Dr Adrian Yeo, from exactly 2 years ago.

Dr Adrian Yeo was then a houseman then, who, in a terrible terrible incident, was lured by CNB officers posing as gay men to source for drugs, and bring them to a sex romp.

Although he refused initially, the CNB officers were persistent, and insisted repeatedly.. so he finally relented, turned up, and was arrested for possession of 0.16g of methamphetamine.

I'm sure many of us remember how outraged, saddened and disgusted we were by the entrapment.

I'm sure many of us remember the outpour of discussions on the unfairness of the situation.. or how gay men who use drugs are dangerous to society anf should be put away behind bars. My mother, for one, immediately called me to warn me repeatedly not to do drugs.

I'm sure many of us remember the Newpaper article, which slanted Adrian's story to maximise shock value to describe how gay men use drugs to get "hot" for wild sex, and how they use drugs to "cool down".

Dr Adrian Yeo was sentenced to 8 months in jail.

NHG was quick to drop him.. SMC wanted to deregister him; and not allow him to complete his housemanship.

Then UN got to know about his case.. and offered to buy his bond over if Singapore does not want him.

Singhealth, then, decided to take him back, and allow him to complete his housemanship.

I got to know Adrian about a year ago. I was doing a psychiatry posting in SGH, and he was doing his last 2 HO postings..

I was in W46A, and he was in W46, on the other side of the door.

Andy knew him prior, so we got acquainted and started talking.. going for lunches, chatting.

We would talk about his dark times during the incident, his aspirations.. what postings he wanted to do after housemanship, his cute colleagues; he was too busy with housemanship to date at that time..

I was undergoing a dark dark period of my life, after the trouble with Singahealth and SMC.. so he offered me advice, encouragement and shared his experiences.

He often called to ask me how my case was going, and to update me on his pending medical registration.

The last times I saw him were in December 07 - we went out for a drink at Robertson Quay, and went for a friend's housewarming party on another occasion.

The last time I spoke to Adrian was somewhere in December 07.

He had called me, with a mix of excitement and disappointment, after he had FINALLY received his medical registration with SMC.. but it was only a conditional registration, and not a full one. But he had come a long long way to get to where he was.

On Thursday evening, Andy and I were informed by a friend that Adrian was critically ill in ICU, and given 24 hours to live. He had been suffering from what seemed like a viral infection, which presented as a persistent cough. He was admitted for observation, then discharged well..

2 saturdays ago, as he was resting at home, he suddenly had a bout of massive hemoptysis (vommiting of blood), and was admitted to hospital. On sunday, he desaturated, and collapsed, requiring intubation.

His father told us that his last words to his brother, asking him to go back home to bring some clothes for him. They then discovered that his platelets were low.. and despite resuscitation and transfusion, it remained critically low..

The doctors think its some form of intractable ITP.

He never regained consciousness after Saturday.

Dr Adrian Yeo passed away on Friday, 20 June 08, in the afternoon.

He was a good man; one who has had a hard life, and who, despite all the setbacks, achieved his dream of becoming a practising doctor.

He will be dearly missed, by myself, by Andy, and all his friends.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

A gay movie starring Adrian Pang!

Gosh, I just discovered this short film starring Adrian Pang and Ivan Heng! I think it was made many years ago cos the actors just looked so young and wrinkles free.

If any one is looking for any sex scenes, you would be disappointed. The short movie is eh....rather sex free and amateurish.

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/hR-TugNpbrk/

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Death of a Doctor Part 1

I was reading the papers today when I came across this article. I definitely remembered this case as an example of a young promising life destroyed by drugs then. I always wondered what happened to that doctor. And here is his ending.

When news came out 2 years ago of the high profile drug case, people were intrigued. There was sex, homosexuality, drugs, a young promising doctor, entrapment and the authorities. There were some who were enraged cos they see it as the government clamping down and targeting the the gay population.

But imagine, if he had never been caught, what would have happen? Would he have continued in his downward spiral of sex and drugs? Would he still able to function efficiently as a medical doctor?

I have known of some guys who were very into sex..and sometimes I think they tried softcore drugs to get a sexual high. It is an addiction that is not easy shaken off. Their lifes revolved around one fuck after another. They cannot stop. They are after that GREAT FUCK of their life. Everyday was eat, sleep, work and fuck. Are they happy? Is fucking so important that they constitute such a major part of their lives?

I am not sure if Dr Yeo was like that or what he was like.

But Dr Yeo was caught. And he was just damned unlucky. He was given a second chance which he appreciated. However, fate was not on his side. I am sure if he had live, he would have learnt from his mistakes and do great things.

So rest in peace, Dr Yeo.

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The Straits Times
25 June, 2008

JUNIOR DOC IN 2006 DRUG STING

He becomes doctor, then dies suddenly After 8-month jail term, he was given chance to complete his housemanship; but he dies in hospital after short illness

By Teh Joo Lin & Judith Tan

A YOUNG doctor embroiled in a high-profile drug bust two years ago died on Friday, months after he looked to have turned his life around.

Dr Adrian Yeo See Seng, 29, was thrust into the limelight in 2006 when he walked into a drug sting at a Bencoolen Street hotel and was caught with methamphetamine, or Ice. In the court case that followed, the then-medical houseman claimed that he was only experimenting with the drug. He was jailed for eight months. When he finished his sentence, he vowed to clean up his life, become a physician and volunteer overseas.

'He was a good man - one who had a hard life and who, despite all the setbacks, achieved his dream of becoming a practising doctor,' a fellow physician wrote on his blog. According to the blogger, Dr Yeo began vomiting blood at home earlier this month and was taken to the intensive care unit at a hospital. He had been nursing a nagging cough from a viral chest infection that worsened in the past six weeks.

The blogger, who had befriended Dr Yeo when he was a houseman at the Singapore General Hospital (SGH), wrote that he may have been suffering from an 'intractable' form of idiopathic thrombocytopenic purpura (ITP). The condition hinders the ability of blood to clot and can cause sufferers to bleed to death. He never regained consciousness.

Lawyer Kertar Singh, who represented Dr Yeo in court, said his late client had harboured dreams of becoming a physician and being 'useful to society and mankind' following his release from prison. The two had met over dinner after he was freed. 'He told me that, given the opportunity, he would go abroad and do volunteer service to help those in dire need: people in disaster- and epidemic-hit places,' Mr Singh told The Straits Times. Dr Yeo was given that chance in March last year, when the Singapore Medical Council allowed him to continue his housemanship after he was released from prison.

The council said that he had been an active volunteer since his release and cited glowing testimonials from his peers and doctors. Dr Yeo was a taxi driver's son who made good. He finished his housemanship at SingHealth hospitals at the end of last year. He worked at SGH between January and April this year before he was posted to the emergency department at the KK Women's and Children's Hospital last month.

Other colleagues expressed their feelings about the late Dr Yeo in their personal blogs. His family members, who had stood by him throughout his ordeal, declined to speak to reporters.

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iWicked says: According to my research, the blog in question belongs to http://dino-14579.livejournal.com/. However, the author has since removed that post.

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Channel NewsAsia
10 Mar 2007

Doctor allowed to continue housemanship after serving jail term

The Singapore Medical Council (SMC) has allowed a doctor to continue his housemanship, under supervision, for at least eight months after he was convicted for drug possession.

Dr Adrian Yeo See Seng, 27, had been a house officer with the National Healthcare Group for about five months when he was arrested in April last year. He had just finished serving an eight-month jail term.

The SMC said it had censured Dr Yeo and ordered him to give a written undertaking that he would not engage in such conduct again.Dr Yeo was also ordered to pay the costs of the disciplinary proceedings.

His Counsel said Dr Yeo had committed the offence when he was "extremely anxious" while waiting for the results of his examination. Dr Yeo had to re-sit that examination and had been under "tremendous stress", worried about the financial consequences he may have to bear should he fail.

His Counsel told the SMC's Disciplinary Committee that upon his release from prison, Dr Yeo has been an active volunteer and "maintains his passion for the medical profession". Dr Yeo also submitted testimonials from his peers and doctors who believe that he is able to function as a doctor again. The Committee said it considered all such factors, as well as his punishment and nature of offence, before allowing Dr Yeo to resume his housemanship. - CNA/de

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The Straits Times
8 June 2006

Young doctor jailed eight months for possessing Ice

Downward spiral began when he experimented with gay sex and drugs

By Elena Chong

Taxi driver's son Adrian Yeo See Seng had a bright future as a doctor but the 27-year-old threw it all away when he experimented with sex and drugs. A district court heard yesterday that he spiralled downwards after he started engaging in homosexual sex with strangers he met over the Internet, and taking drugs.

He was caught when a man he chatted with online invited him for a sex session with a third man at a Bencoolen Street hotel. But the two strangers turned out to be undercover anti-narcotics officers who found drugs on Yeo when he arrived, and arrested him.

He was yesterday jailed for eight months after he had admitted to having a packet of 0.16g of methamphetamine or Ice at the Bencoolen Street hotel room on April 1. Three charges of possessing Ecstasy and ketamine were taken into consideration during his sentencing. He was initially charged with three counts of drug trafficking and one of possession.

Yeo attended The Chinese High School and Hwa Chong Junior College and, after national service, trained to become a doctor at the National University of Singapore. He signed a five-year bond for $400,000 to serve the Government and took a $66,000 bank loan to pay his way through university.

After graduating, he was posted as a houseman first to the National University Hospital last year and then to Tan Tock Seng Hospital in March this year. But his world came crashing down on April Fool's Day when Central Narcotics Bureau officers arrested him at Hotel 81 at about 3.45pm, and took an envelope containing crystalline substances in a plastic bag from his haversack. In his written plea for leniency, counsel Kertar Singh hoped his client could get probation and a second chance.

He said Yeo was consumed with a deep sense of guilt and shame. Mr Singh said Yeo's descent into sex and drugs began after he failed one of his final examination papers in March last year and had to re-sit the paper. He was devastated at failing. While anxiously awaiting the result of his second try, the counsel said, he poured out his sorrows to strangers over an Internet chatline for homosexuals.

Mr Singh said Yeo, who had been been attracted to males since he was a teenager, began engaging in gay sex with different partners - including strangers - and also started taking synthetic drugs for the first time. About a week before he was caught, Yeo chatted online with a man named Joe about sex and drugs.

On March 31, Mr Singh said, Joe said he had a friend named Jacob and asked if Yeo would be keen on having three-way sex. Joe also said he had some drugs and asked if Yeo had any. Yeo went to the hotel, but Joe and Jacob turned out to be undercover narcotics officers and he was arrested. District Judge Wong Keen Onn ruled out probation, saying Yeo was a mature adult who was not suffering from any mental disorder.

Mr Singh had objected to the manner in which Yeo was lured and arrested, but the judge said there was nothing to suggest that CNB officers had acted illegally or had gone beyond the boundary of the law. Yeo could have been jailed for up to 10 years or fined up to $20,000 or sentenced to both a jail term and fine for having drugs. Several family members, including his father and housewife mother, were in court yesterday, but they declined to speak to reporters.

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The Straits Times
9 June 2006

ENTRAPMENT

Lawyers say narcotics officers crossed the line in quest to nab offender, but any method of entrapment is legal here

By Stephanie Yap

Passing time in an Internet chatroom one night, Adrian Yeo met a man called Joe. Over the following few days, Joe was quite persistent, sending him SMS messages asking if he had drugs, and if he wanted to meet up 'to have fun'.

According to Yeo's mitigation plea submitted in court, he refused the first few times. Eventually, the 26-year-old trainee doctor gave in and met Joe, and another man, Jacob, at a Hotel 81, on April Fools Day this year.

When he arrived at the hotel, he got a nasty surprise. Both men turned out to be undercover Central Narcotics Bureau (CNB) officers, who found 0.16g of methamphetamine on him. Arrested for drug possession, Yeo was sentenced to eight months in jail on Wednesday. The time in prison requires him to break a $400,000 five-year bond with the Government, and casts a shadow on his medical career.

CNB has often been known to employ the same methods it used to catch Yeo. Said CNB spokesman Amelia Oh 'CNB is aware that drug offenders use various means to conduct their illegal activities and have come across instances of some of them using the Internet to do so.

'Based on intelligence gathered and feedback received, CNB will monitor channels of information, including chatrooms, to detect and apprehend drug offenders.' Unlike countries such as the United States and Canada, where evidence gathered through 'excessive' entrapment can be thrown out of court, evidence obtained through any method of entrapment is lawful in Singapore.

Entrapment is often used when the authorities know an individual is committing an offence, but cannot catch him in the act, said retired police detective Lionel de Souza. 'It can be difficult to catch a person red-handed even if you already have information that he is breaking the law. 'In the case of drug possession, you can invite him to meet you and hope he arrives with drugs,' he said.

However, Yeo's lawyer, Mr Kertar Singh, argued that CNB officers overstepped a boundary. 'Yes, the whole exercise is not illegal, but in all fairness what was done by CNB was not appropriate. 'They went into the chatline and lured people in by saying certain things. An innocent, naive person might find himself in this kind of situation, then get caught,' he said.

According to Yeo's mitigation presented in court, he initially refused the undercover officer's requests to meet him. While he admitted to the officer he had drugs, he said they were for his own consumption only. Yeo finally accepted an invitation to meet Joe and Joe's boyfriend for sex at the Bencoolen Street Hotel 81 on April 1.

Joe told Yeo he had some Ecstasy, and asked if Yeo had drugs. Yeo said he would bring some. While lawyers agree some entrapment is necessary for law enforcement, they say officers should not tempt an otherwise unwilling person to commit a crime.

'I don't think officers should be encouraging people to commit offences. I'm very uncomfortable with that,' said Mr Peter Low, chairman of the Law Society's criminal practice committee. Mr Subhas Anandan, president of the Association of Criminal Lawyers of Singapore, agreed. 'Of course, a certain degree of entrapment should be allowed, otherwise you can't catch crooks. But they mustn't cross the line.' CNB did cross the line, in Mr Anandan's opinion, in a 2003 case in which insurance agent Teo Ya Lin was pressed by an undercover CNB officer to obtain an Ecstasy pill for him, promising to buy a big policy from her in return. Teo got him a pill, for which she was sentenced to six years and three months in jail.

'This girl had no intention of selling drugs until she was repeatedly persuaded by the officer. She would not under normal circumstances be a trafficker. The temptation is put forward,' said Mr Anandan. The veteran defence lawyer, who has personally seen three cases of excessive entrapment in the past year, believes it is a growing problem.

'It has come to a stage where people are talking about it. I can't give figures offhand, but the number is enough to be a little bit scary,' he said. The Association of Criminal Lawyers plans to put the entrapment issue to the Government in a paper it is preparing, which Mr Anandan estimates will be ready in a month or two.

Mr Low said the Law Society is not currently looking into the issue as it is working on capital punishment reform. 'However, entrapment law reform would be timely,' he said. Both lawyers point out that entrapment laws were revised in 2001 in Britain, on which Singapore models its legal system.

In an October 2001 landmark case, the House of Lords ruled that it was 'simply not acceptable that the state, through its agents, should lure its citizens into committing acts forbidden by the law and then seek to prosecute them for doing so'. The case involved Spencer Grant Looseley, who was approached several times by an undercover police officer who tried to get him to sell drugs.

Reform in Singapore may take a while yet, but Mr Anandan suggested in the meantime, judges can indicate in their verdict their dissatisfaction with the current entrapment laws, in the hope of inspiring legislative change. 'Parliament must do something. For the judiciary, their hands are tied as the law is very clear.'